the ongoing school saga

Yes Ashlin STILL does not like school. Well she likes school, just not if she has to go. And she really does like her teacher so that isn't the problem, she says the days are just to long (oh and boring).

Not to torture her or anything, but because I thought it would be good, I put her in after school french two days a week. The start at 3:30pm and go to 4:30pm. It is very casual and has kindergarten to grade four age level. Well yesterday was supposed to have been her third class. But at 3:00pm she told her teacher that her tummy was really bothering her, so they sent her home! Ya big surprise when she got home she was 100% fine. Ugh I am so annoyed that the teacher fell for it for one thing, and I am also annoyed/frustrated because I seriously do not know what to do! I am sorry that she doesn't like school, but she has to go. I really don't know if homeschooling is the answer. Ashlin totally knows how to manipulate me and get out of things, so I worry if I home school that we will just have power struggles all the time. What good would that be. She is learning at school, how much I am not to sure though. I don't remember what grade one was like but I keep thinking the stuff she is doing is so basic. So anyways all I can think is "oh dear, she has 11 more years to go. What am I going to do."

On a brighter note, I gave Ashlin a new bedroom wall yesterday. I am sure that most of my scrapping friends have seen it but just in case, here it is:

I used 12 x 12 papers and just spray glued them up :D Ashlin seemed to like it, but she has already asked if I could paint all the green squares blue. Ya, like I will get right on that!

Anyways thanks for listening to me rant about school - again!

the downside of kids birthday parties.

So Ashlin had a birthday party to go today, three glorious hours of 16 girls running around playing diva. Thank goodness I was not the host lol. She had so much fun though, and I am happy to hear it.

BUT, and I hate to say this, but the goodie bag she brought home is scary! Nothing but sugar, and very noisy toys. I kinda snagged some right away and she didn't even realize it, which I am very grateful for because I dislike fighting with her about that kinda stuff. I convinced her to set aside some for daddy, and she is sharing with Colton. So now we can figure that she has about 1 cup of sugar at her disposal. And of this the worst is these plastic vampire teeth, that come with a big plastic baggie of colored sugar. You are supposed to put the sugar in the mouthpiece where your teeth go, I guess to pad that plastic suckers or something. Like oh my goodness, can anyone call those things good for teeth!

I don't want to be a mean mom and say that my kids can't go to birthday parties because of the sugary goodies bags sent home (95% of the time) but at the same time I just get so annoyed that this seems to be the norm. And I think that if I just made the kids leave without a goodie bag they would both be pretty upset.

Would it be rude to let the birthday hosts know that I would prefer only one to two pieces of candy in her bag??? What else could I do?

Creativity has returned!

Yay!!!! My creativity block has passed. I think the stress of Christmas break and wonderful holiday expectations was a bit more then I bargained for, and it totally killed any inking of creativity I had. Now that life is semi normal, the kids are back in school, the house is back to normal, I am feeling more creative. And it feels great!!!

Oh and I have been on the treadmill almost everyday :D Yay go me :D

Anyways here is what I have created in the past week:




There is more but blogger is not liking me today :( And I need to get my butt to the treadmill.

Hope you all have a GREAT weekend!

PS - Robyn I am sooo happy to have you back girl!!! {{{hugs}}}

so at Christmastime I realized...

I realized just how reclusive I have become. I barely talk to anyone. In my real life and on the computer. I have always been a girl who knows a lot of people, but open and close with only a select few. I still am like that, and if you think I can sure yap alot then you are one of those special few.

But I do not socialize anymore, at all I think. I don't make small talk, and I tend to keep myself very distant from most everyone. It is Rob, Ashlin and Colton who get the pleasure to listen to me everyday now. While I am sure that they fully FULLY enjoy it, I have lost touch with so many people. Most people are lucky if I say hi to them now. Isn't that just awful of me.

It made me really sad to come to this realization. I do enjoy my quiet time that is for sure, but this way I am is ridiculous! Part of it is because I am unhappy with how I look and a larger part of it is because I just don't have the energy to put out and go the extra few steps. When I am out usually my thoughts are finishing my errands and getting back home, not stopping to chat. I do go out with Rob for coffee still, it isn't like I never leave the house. But I tell ya I miss the old days when my girlfriends and I would go for dinner and sit and chat for hours! It is way different talking to a guy than talking away with your girls.

So the question is, now that I have come to my senses. What am I to do? Since I am just a stay at home mom now I don't really like I have a lot to offer anyone any more. I am sure that friends can only handle me talking about my kids, or heaven forbid, my mother!(ACK!) so much. And truth be told I just feel so shy now that I am not sure I can start being more social again, it just feels so awkward and uncommon for me.

I don't know.

so is that fate or what?

I was just posting, for the first timein weeks hey. And it was kinda personal and perhaps even a bit whiney. And what do you know, major computer crash. I guess I was not meant to share my issues tonight, I will sleep on them and then see if I still feel like sharing them lol

A New Year has begun :D I have made the yearly resolution to become a more active woman, and in doing so I hope to lose weight, a lot of weight!
Wish me luck!!!